We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race, and the human race is filled with passion. Medicine, law, business, engineering: these are noble pursuits, and necessary to sustain life; but poetry, beauty, romance, love: these are what we stay alive for. --John Keating, Dead Poets Society
All day long I've looked forward to getting lost in blog world, but alas, it's way past my bedtime, laundry is drying and I can't seem to quiet the thoughts rolling around in my head like marbles on a hardwood floor. Though, thankfully, their trip across the stained trees is a silent one. Funny how the ordinary takes away from the extraordinary.
Often, I am invisible, but writing gives me a voice. Sometimes, merely a whisper in the wind, while other times, I feel I must scream at the top of my lungs; a "barbaric yawp", if you will. I feel few people really "get" me. I could be completely mistaken. I spend a lot of time thinking within myself. I suppose that's one of the burdens an artist goes through. (I've only recently started referring to myself in this way. Trust me, this is an accomplishment in and of itself.)
I found something in a journal, which I wanted to share. Silly me, I didn't date it, but near as I can tell, it was written around 2002. See what you think:
Your grace continues to amaze meWhen I'm lost beneath the sea of humanityConsumed with worryYou become my breath of lifeGuiding me to places I've never been beforeThough You, I am restoredIt amazes me how You continue to do great things in my lifeI often wonder why You botherWhen at every step, I strive for self-sufficientcyIs it to show me Your grace?Or the fact that You'll bless me despite my humanessOr do you just simply love me?Why is that such a hard concept to grasp?I suppose it's the human condition to place levels of love on othersMy human mind doesn't understandWhy You continue to love me,Despite all the sin in my lifeDespite my shameBut you don't see any of that, do You, Lord?Since I am covered in Your Son's blood,All You see is Him...His perfectly shed blood covers my sinful frameAnd washes me clean as freshly fallen snow