Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Momma always said....

....there'd be days like this. I sat down a while ago to basically vent about my day. But I've erased everything I've written thus far. It all sounded so whiney and trivial. I'm only going to mention that I'm only ONE girl, who can only do and handle so much before I explode. Ugh! If I ever left my job, I honestly believe they'd have to hire at least two people to do all that I do.

A "white squall" hit today. I had no warning. Suddenly, I was in the midst of the storm-tossed sea with no life preserver. Times like these make me want to throw my hands up and just quit! If only; darn those responsibilites. The thing of it is, I really don't think God's plan is for me to be this miserable on a day-to-day basis. I have all these seemingly random talents, but did God give them to me so that I could turn a profit? I really don't think so. I mean, I think God gives us things such as talents so we can ultimately give Glory to God. How far I've strayed from that.

I don't know what to do. I would love to do something creative. Something that used my skills and talents, rather than trying to make a square peg fit into a round hole. Sure, I'm pretty good at what I do, but it's not who I am. It'*drains* me every day. I don't know how long I can keep doing this. Prayer. I need prayer. Guidance. Wisdom. What should I do?? How I would love a burning bush.

1 comment:

StaceyStace said...

Hi, Meredith,

So sorry about your day! I pray God will give you direction. I have had jobs where the stress would make me physically sick. I truly sympathize with you. Hopefully tomorrow will be brighter!